yay

Yes, God, you are so beautiful.

the past two messages i have gotten from my parents:


my dad, "I love my beautiful daughter!!!"
and my mom, "I love you for your holy boldness. You are like Joan of Arc! I am soooo proud of you!"

seriously both made me nearly cry. i am so blessed to have parents who love me, i seriously don't deserve it at all. i also take for granted how supportive they are when i'm in ART school. for serioussss. :(


i'm taking a freshman girl in YL named Camille to church with me tomorrow and i am mucho excited! i wanted to go to bed at 11, but we ended up staying longer than i had planned at the guys' house watching arrested development and playing apples to apples , waiting for josh to turn 21 at midnight. then i gave in to a taco bell run with hannah and nan then went back to our apartment and talked for a while with nicole. (i am seriously overwhelmed by the number of amazing, hilarious, dynamic and beautiful people i am surrounded by every day here) then when i thought i was going to bed around 3, i started feeling nuts and started cutting my hair. i had/and still have NO IDEA what i want to do with it argh. but i cut the left side awkwardly super short, and then my bangs are still really thinck and weird on one side and it is considerably thicker on that side as well- it is thinner in the back and at a point rather than straight across.
anyway my hair is like a really weird greasiness right now so i won't really be able to see how it panned out til the morning haha. but i don't think this was a very good idea hahah. it looked pretty good for a while and then i just lost it urgh. i think i know what i want now, now that i pooped up my hair and now it's super short in places that should be long for what i wanted hahah. but it will be okay. this is the natural process i looove but can so easily get carried away with haha. i need more waxxxx.

yay so it's 4;30 now haha. well, God definitely made awesome use of my time. I love that about him, I want to learn to submit to that more.