God's purposes for a young person's life go way beyond getting a bachelor degree and a spouse. desiring a purpose and a lover is natural and good, but i'm thankful Jesus loves me enough to pull me aside and show me that in him, i have both a purpose and a lover of my soul. even if it is the most disorienting, frustrating, discouraging and identity shaking lesson to learn, i am so tired of feeling unaffirmed and lonely because i can't live up to my own expectations- and i know that's something God doesn't want me to go on living with.